It's completely impossible to find a girl that won't hurt me. So I'll instead go for the girl who will make the pain worthwhile

Sunday, May 24, 2009

5/24/2009 01:07:00 AM

well, i have nothing to do, so im blogging like crazy.. another post. after a long thought, i realised 7 factors will my gf left me.

1st- we stayed too far, she's damn tired of travelling over.
2nd- i have no education, she prolly thinks people around her may look down on me, feels i dont suit her.
3rd- i have no cert, she's prolly afraid that next time, i will have no income, i cannot give her a good life.(because i'm not doing well now)
4th- we both talked too much which end up quarrelling, soiling e relationship.
5th- She thinks we're not suitable because we don't like e same likings for things.
6th- she feels i dont trust her enough.
7th- she can't cope love and studies at the same time.

Well, not only i thought about e factors, i've also thought about e solutions. though yea i know chances of her coming back to me is like 0%, at least i did crack my brain for e past 15 days.

1st- we stayed too far, she's damn tired of travelling over.

Singapore is small, yes sometimes we get irritated by the travelling time, because we have to wait for the bus, omg its so crowded, omg the sun's so hot. e worse thing is during night time when u wanna go home, omg, so long journey back. so tired. shit. well, u're not coming here everyday what. most of e time, i go over to find u, in fact u'll afraid u'll gonna take bus for e rest of ur life? if that's e case, i shall assure you over here NO. lol, i'm on pratical test and i'll get my license in a few months. i can afford, i have nth, i just have too much money. even if u stayed thailand, i'll be soo willing to drive there everyday, just to see u. distance makes e heart fonder. and i feel, we'll get married in e future wad, we'll be staying under the same roof, then why not enjoy something u wont get to in e future? i mean if u want to see fruits, u have to do e labour. just like u wanna score good results, u gotta work hard. isnt that e same logic?

2nd- i have no education, she prolly thinks people around her may look down on me, feels i dont suit her.

well, my parents looked down on me as well, i'm a poly dropped out. i have no education. so what? does that mean im stupid? i don't know how to study? NO! i scored 13 points, above avg in all polys, i can study, just that i choose an alternate path, my parents keep comparing my sis and me, my sis studies in london, she's e 3rd smartest in spore therefore sponsored by e govt. she says my sis is better, they're damn bias. but at e end of e day, i gave her e most allowance. =/
even if u have e highest qualification, if ur character fails you, u're nothing. people around you, will only look down on me, when im not able to give u a good life, letting u feel stressed and vex-ed over bills and debts, PLUS I NO CERT.. then yes, they will. coz im useless, a piece of shit!
but they're not gonna look down on me, if i can give u a good life. that's e main point.

3rd- i have no cert, she's prolly afraid that next time, i will have no income, i cannot give her a good life.(because i'm not doing well now)

2nd and 3rd point almost e same, yes going to sch to study for personal experience, exposure and knowledge is GOOD. but who the hell taught singaporeans to use their cert in e future to earn money? does ur teacher teach u that? does ur principal teach u that? does ur friend teach u that? whatever path we take in life, at e avg age of 25, everybody will have e same goal which is $. am i right? well, business do fruculate, i can't always be doing well, but at least i can still feed u and myself, and i still have a long way to go.. sometimes, to be honest, from e start i made a wrong decision by showing u i alrd have high income, thats why sometimes i acted damn poor. if u noticed. i can always do well if i want to. cert is not everything. if bill gates can become e whole's richest man when he's a 0 lvl drop out, when walt disney gone bankcrupt and became sucessful at e age of 50, when colombus (KFC founder), started his business at e age of 50 succeeded, why cant i? there's no difference between them and me, im human so they are. if they can make it, so can i.

4th- we both talked too much which end up quarrelling, soiling e relationship.

i agree to a certain extent sometimes, we can't agree on things, thats why we quarrelled. and i've come to a conclusion of e quarrels, it's because, both of us, we're just PLAIN LAZY. now think about it, sometimes we cant decide what we want, where to go, we end up quarrelling, idk how to say, but ya, we're just lazy. not willing to go e extra mile for the party that we love. i feel that sometimes quarrels are good, but bad as well. they're good if we quarrelled about US, they're not good if we quarelled about something else like food, lifestyle etc. after we quarrelled once, u said u love me soo much and u repeated it 3 whole days. u see? that's e difference. different types of quarrels. but i feel that if u can't take all this, u shldnt even agreed to be with me from e start, coz u've hurt me seriously now.

5th- She thinks we're not suitable because we don't like e same likings for things.

who the hell has the same taste bud? same childhood experience? same lifestyle? well, im not ur brother. im ur boyfriend. we grew up differently and definitely through our childhood, e things we did, or we ate made us like something or dislike something. how do u expect me to like everything u eat? LOL. and does that really matter in a relationship? because we dont like e same things? kinda wierd dont u feel? if that's one of ur reason. im not cloned from you. i grew up with a silverspoon and definitely, no single person on Earth can have e same character and personality, and we both has no personality or character clash. infact if u wanna say this, i can say we're more like a couple. both hot-headed. =x
im not a professor, and i dont know how to explain or give u an example of a clash, i suggest u read up if u wanna know more information. having different likings is good, u get to know me better, why i love this kind of stuff, u get to try e stuff i like, i get to try urs to, thats wad we're suppose to go through, a whole new experience with someone we love. exploring their lifes deeper, isnt that how it should be?

6th- she feels i dont trust her enough.

put all ur money into ur lecturer's bank then. ur parents, ur house, everything u've got. i bet u wont do that! take a look at a business point of view, will u pass all ur money to someone u juz knew less than a yr? trust is something that we cannot deny it cannot be controlled. it can only be stengthened through obstacles, and through journeys we gone through together. different situations we explored. cannot be yay tan kaili, i love u, so yeah, i be tgr with u lor, i 100% trust u liao, all my asset u take lor. keep in ur bank okie? got such stuff meh? nobody in e right sense of mind will do that right? and prolly after knowing her 5yrs, marrying alrd, u'll not mind doing that right? u get my point? and trust is not talking about money only. most of e times in r/s, we dont trust one another because of e opposite sex. i dont call that not trusting that person, i call that worrying for e person. like u said, if u went to cycle and go weixi hse stay, i wouldnt have called and sms u so much, even if its only you and him, tgr, i'll also trust him, not because i know him long enuff, but at least i know who he is, what kind of person he is. there u go.

7th- she can't cope love and studies at the same time.

u've got to learn how to multi task what! i'm not somebody who has super high protective wall, and not somebody unreasonable asking u to 24/7 keep me company. i'll state a few senarials.

friends and families, when u're with friends, u play ur role as a friend, when u're at home, u play ur role as a daughter, as a sister. in sch, u play ur role as a student.

actually to be frank, u can cope love and studies, im not trying to act smart here but think about it, how many subjects u took when u're in secondary sch? at least 8 !! u can cope with 8 stuff, u cant cope with 2? im not a subject, u dont have to study me, i am understanding, and u dont have to purposely pick up time to study me, or i should say accompany me, i won't run away right? i love u, u can spend time with me when u're free.. im just a person to give u extra encouragement, to be there for u when u're down, to love u, and to care and make ur life work out 100%.
all about multi-tasking.

idk, mayb its just my assumption again.

well, im finally done, and i felt love is something that cannot be explained, gauged, measured or judged. love is blind, and for wadever that has happened, lim li long jason will conclude to himself,

there is no true love in the world.

taikib0i