It's completely impossible to find a girl that won't hurt me. So I'll instead go for the girl who will make the pain worthwhile

Sunday, May 24, 2009

5/24/2009 12:26:00 AM

well, i really dont know why the hell u treat me like this, ingore me and stuff. idk, things just happened so fast and it's alrd 15 days, but everyday i still think of you 24/7. u can't just get off my mind. idk, i just can't. i prolly loved u too much, gave u everything u wanted for, even my heart. maybe it's because u're still young? u don't understand love? idk.. i'm feeling so vexed everyday.

i don't know what to do with my life. to work, or not. to move on or not. i'm feeling damn terrible, that's all i know. u claimed u loved me so much e other time for e past 3 days, those love arent worth a chance to give me at all? then what am i? ur toy? a companion for u during ur sch holidays, and once sch starts, u're busy, u chuck me off crying, feeling soo hurt like nobody's business?

i went all the way down from my home, to changi airport, to pass u 1 slap of panadol. the travelling hours took me 4hrs to and flo. i don't expect u to feel touch, i just expect some care and concern, and u didnt even say a thank you, when u met me, u look so fustrated. i didn't owe u a million bucks. I am somebody once who was with u, loving u, caring for u.. i know we had quarrels, which mayb soiled e relationship, but isnt that something couples must go through? like chris and boon? like vivi and james?

idk, i'm just so vex-ed. everything in my life for e past 15 days is all about u, i went to pray for u, ur headache, ur results. every moment of my life, TAN KAILI, u have never once disappeared. i told myself to move on, i tell myself, jason lim. she does not love u, just move on okay? find a new gf, go back work, establish ur career. but i just cant, telling myself to get a gf will be meaningless, coz i wont love her. i cant work, my WHOLE MIND is thinking about u, how do u expect me to concentrate? well, u can't deny u really screw my life. But i'm not blaming you for it, infact, i should salute you, no girls ever make me love them so much, vex and think over them so much, promised them stuff. i nvr once promise i'll stick to a girl forever, love them forever, i promised u, i'm fulfilling them. i've alrd changed for e better, even though we may not be couples again, why can't u treat me like a normal friend? everytime i try talk to u, u tell me ttyl. are u really that busy? u tell me im going sleep, good night. but u didn't. u're just avoiding me. u avoid me beacuse u're afraid u'll love me back? or u avoid me because u really hate me so much? i know one of e reasons u left me is because u'll feeling tired of e quarrels, and e tiredness is not letting u able to cope with sch and love at e same time, but i'm like changed? in this whole r/s, u said before, u gonna give me 3 chances, for everything i did wrongly, i saved e sms, but u didnt even gave me one? i don't believe u totally don't love me 100%, totally 100% no feelings. u're really hard-hearted, cold-blooded. u just want me out of ur life so u'll feel better, everything is about u, then what about me? we were once together, can't u make me live life happily? why do u have to do this to me? i feel like i'm being played out by you, a toy to u, when u've done using me, i go into the bin. now think about it, idk wad to say, but i really hope u can think.. OPEN UP UR BRAINS AND THINK!

and if u really don't love me, no feelings, then why are u viewing my blog everyday?

Conclusion:
-u made a person love u so much, and u just ditch him and forget about everything.
-u gave him empty promises which really led him into a delimma.
-u made him felt like a toy.
-u hurt a person feelings so much that god has seen it, u'll have ur karma.
-u made him almost commit suicide.
-u led him to depression that he has to be on medication now.
-u really hurt a good guy.
-u let go an extinct species of guys that u'll never ever find, trust me. i know who i am.

ever since u stepped into my life, my heart has no more space for other girls. i really love u alot, please, take me back when u're feeling better, i'll always be waiting.

wfvk=15 days.
W-aitng F-or V-itamin K-aili = 15 days.

i'll love u, my whole lifetime.

taikib0i

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