It's completely impossible to find a girl that won't hurt me. So I'll instead go for the girl who will make the pain worthwhile

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

8/18/2009 01:33:00 AM

Sad to say, yeah, I'm going into the army soon. september 14th will be the day I should fight for the country? LOL!

Good to say I'm in PES E, which means strictly administrative duties only. Somehow I feel it's good, but somehow no. Cause army it's like a one time life experience only. And kenging until like this, I may not get to experience living in the forest etc etc. I went live firing before with a M16. Held guns before, shot before, load bullets, strip rifles before cause those were done in my previous secondary CCA, which was NCC. But nevertheless, I felt one life time experience that needs 2 years to complete is a hell lot of time. So I'll stick to admin work. But the pay sucks, $450 I guess? One day smoke one pack cigarette plus transport, my pay become negative $-500. zz, I need to have $1300 to spend for my expenses to count my life comfortable, which I'm enjoying it for the past 4 months. But I guess all these is coming to an end. Luckily VE I still got downlines that can generate me income. =DDD

And after I ORD from NS, I guess I'll have to start my career ler. Cause when I come out, Age 22 yrs old already. Haha, I'll see how things goes in VE for the next 2 years, cause I'm 8-5pm, so I can still build my organisation, otherwise, I'll go do business with James and Weiyi, or do my uncle's business. zz

Now at least my income for the future is settled, I'm just worried about my own personal life. Hmm, things like maybe finding the right girl? And family and stuff.
Well, it's time to settle down ler. Maybe about e right girl part, let's say I find a girl, I with her 5-6yrs down the road, more or less can marry ler. LOL, I hate changing girlfriends now and then, and I feel it's ulitmately childish. Like puppy love. Wtf? I swear to myself if I'm really going to get into a r/s, I'll stick to her all the way unless she ditch me I guess? Yeah I may not be the perfect person nor guy, but I'm willing to always make changes to suit the environment, and I'll always change for the better, not for the worst. =)

Family wise, I don't know how to make my mum retire, my dad has, but my mum doesn't want to. And I just don't know why, not as if she has not enough money, but I still think it's because she care for us. My sister, brother and I. I guess when we start working independently, then she'll stop. And I hope this day can come soon, cause though I'm not that close with my family members, afterall, she's still my mum, and yes I love her, and I guess it pains me to see her working so hard.

And for myself, FUCK U NS! COME AT THE WRONG TIME.

This whole bloody year of 2009, I won't say it'll be my worse year, cause I'm always prepared to face the worst. But all things hasn't been going well since February.
Okay, January has been good, Career, income, life etc etc. I felt soo loved in that particular month, I did well in VE, did 10k+ PV, earned a big sum of money, I felt I had everything.

February is the start, during chinese new year, lost a lot of money, didn't dare to tell her cause I'm afraid she'll get angry. March was ridiculous, don't even have money to smoke. Zzz, April we starting quarreling, May she left me, June and July, I emoed like siao.. August I started to pick up, have around 5-6 new agents now, can start fighting for Car, but guess what? Army letter come, September 14th need go report. Wtf, luckily my birthday falls on a sunday this year, so I can still book out, and go enjoy. =/ That's the only good thing I can think of. haa..

I know waiting is never perseverance, it's pure stupidity. But I think love for you, has gone beyond words of expression, and I don't know what to say, but...
I love you, and I really do.. <3

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